Many of you have heard me talk over the years about our work on the Thailand/Burma border, about the need for Jesus there and the many people who have been rescued. Life Impact International is a ministry that we have partnered with. Empower International has helped this ministry from their first days and we believe so strongly in what God has called them to do. Please watch this video about what is happening here in Thailand and please pray for Life Impact, Empower International and the many other ministries working to free children from slavery and horrific lives.
Clean Feet
Every couple of months we host a Women’s Day at our church in Mae Toh, Thailand. It’s a time of fellowship and learning and our March event had the theme of Servanthood. After days of praying about what to teach, I felt led to John 13:1-17, the story of Jesus washing his disciples feet during their last supper together. Immediately upon reading the story, I tried to think of something different to teach on. The problem I was having is that I knew that if I taught this story, I would want to end it with our own foot washing ceremony.
Why is that a problem?
In Thai culture, feet are considered the dirtiest and lowliest part of the body. Sure, we all think feet are dirty, but it’s taken to a different level here. In the Buddhist culture, the whole lower part of the body is considered dirty, with feet being the dirtiest. So much so that pants, underwear and socks cannot be washed in the same tub/machine as shirts, jackets, bras, etc. After taking a shower, separate towels are used to dry the upper and lower body. In public, feet cannot be pointed at anyone and you would never ever touch someone’s feet.
As an American, this is a much bigger culture adjustment than I thought it would be. I never realized until I came to Thailand that I moved stuff and pointed with my feet. Even just crossing my legs became a problem because when doing so, my feet were often pointing at someone. Needless to say, it was a huge adjustment and still comes into play at times!
For me to ask a bunch of women to not only wash someone else’s feet, but to allow someone to wash theirs, was a big deal.
So I went to Aon and Ya and asked them what they thought. Their initial reactions were not very encouraging and I decided that if they thought it was a bad idea, I wasn’t going to do it. I spent the next three days trying to come up with something else to teach on and came up with zero ideas. God just kept leading me back to the passage in John 13.
I sat down with Aon and Ya again and after talking a bit, found out that they didn’t really understand what the foot washing was all about. So we had a bible lesson and I taught them.
We talked about how people in Jesus’ time walked all day in sandals in the dirt and their feet would be very dirty and smelly by the end of the day. They pointed out how that was the same in Thailand and they understood why the feet needed to be washed upon entering a house.
So I moved on to the symbolism in the foot washing, how it is a picture of what Jesus did for us on the cross. In the same way that Jesus took off his outer clothing and washed the disciples feet, he laid aside his God nature to serve us, all the way to dying on the cross for us.
Verse 8 says “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.” Literally, unless we allow God to come in and clean all of our sin out of our lives, we cannot be with Jesus. This is done when we accept Jesus into our hearts and become Christians.
Verse 10 says “A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean.” This is telling that we only need to accept Jesus one time. That’s it. He will come into our hearts and live with us forever!
However, we still live in a sinful world and we are still affected by sin every single day. The foot washing is a symbol of Jesus cleaning the dirt from the world off of our hearts on a daily basis. We must allow Jesus to wash us daily!
Then I talked about how this story is not only a picture of what Jesus did for us on the cross, it is also a picture of a lifestyle that Jesus wants us to have, a lifestyle of serving each other in love.
In verse 14 Jesus doesn’t say “Now that I’ve washed your feet, you should wash my feet.” He says “Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet.”
The world’s definition of love is that we give in order to get. Now that I’ve given you something, you have to give me something in return. God teaches us that love should be given freely and sacrificially!. We must give of ourselves without expecting anything in return.
In verse 16 Jesus is telling the disciples that if even he, God, can live a lifestyle of serving in love, than they should also. And in turn, we need to.
Verse 17 tells us that if we do these things, we will be blessed. This literally means that if we follow the example of Jesus in this story, our futures will be happy and fulfilled. Who wouldn’t want that?!
If you seek happiness as your goal, it will always elude you. But if you turn away from this and instead depend personally on Christ and serve others, happiness will always find you!
By the time I got to the end of the lesson, I was on fire and astonished to find that Aon and Ya were really excited too! The both told me that I HAD to teach this lesson to the women and then we HAD to wash each other’s feet.
At this point, I just sat back and laughed. Why did I ever doubt God’s leading? He obviously knows much better than me what the women need to hear. And yet I felt the need to step in and think I knew better. Lord, when will I ever learn?!
So I took this lesson to Mae Toh and taught it to the women there. They were engaged and interested, and I was excited to teach it. When I got to the end, I told them that I wanted them to wash each other’s feet. Instead of complaining and looking like they’d rather be anywhere else, like I’d expected, they were excited. They grabbed the soap, towels and tubs I brought and jumped right into it.
There was laughter and a few tears and a time of serving that ended up being more special than I could have imagined. And of course their focus was not on the feet, but on serving each other in love.
They ended the foot washing by praying for each other, prayers that they would be better servants and learn to love those around them with a Christ-like love.
What a wonderful, blessed day it was!
A Garden of Blessings
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I love my garden. Those of you who have seen it may say that it’s a bit cluttered, but I love it. It makes me smile on a regular basis.
Why? Well whenever I see a flower blooming, I’m reminded of God’s blessings in my life. And believe me, my life is chock full of blessings!
So I take care of my garden of blessings, water it every day and take pictures way too often.
Here’s some I took today:
Provision
Upon hearing that I’m a missionary, people are always curious about my finances. They ask, as sensitively as they can, how I can afford to be on the mission field. When I mention raising support, people tend to cringe and almost always ask if I hate it.
As shocking as it seems, I love raising support! I encourage every missionary to raise support instead of relying on themselves to provide finances. There are two reasons why I believe so strongly in the idea of raising support from individuals and churches.
First, I love to see how God provides. I believe that God has called me into mission work. I believe that it is His will that I am in Thailand working with Empower International. I believe that God doesn’t want me to be poor, but instead wants me prosper and not be lacking in any area of my life. And I believe that God always, ALWAYS provides when we are in His will! God is not lacking finances or anything else, so of course He will provide all that I need. The fun part, is seeing where His provision comes from.
I have been doing full time mission work for over ten years and there hasn’t been a single day during that time where I haven’t had food, water or anything else that I needed. God always provides. Occasionally an unexpected financial need will arise that I know I cannot afford under normal circumstances. But, without fail, the money always arrives, often before I even have a chance to start wondering where it will come from.
Last year my computer died and I admit, I stressed a little bit. My computer is my link to my family and friends in other parts of the world. It’s where I store and edit all the photos I take. I use it to write ministry newsletters and plan events. I use it to process all the accounting for the ministry. It’s a part of my daily life so I sat down and prayed. God knows how important my computer is to my life and ministry, so He provided. Within a week, a friend had donated enough money for me to buy a new computer!
Some people think that God doesn’t care about the small things in life but I believe He does. God wants me to be happy and He provided my dogs because they bring me joy on a daily basis. This month my dog, Gracie, got sick. After taking her to the vet I found out that she needed emergency surgery to save her life and it was going to cost a few hundred dollars. Normally I wouldn’t have that much money that wasn’t already budgeted for something else, but this month I did. This month my support came in and there was a few hundred extra dollars. I wasn’t sure what it was for but I put it in savings, knowing that God knew what it was for. And I was able to provide medical care to save Gracie’s life, plus extra to bless the people who helped save her. God cares about my dogs and wants me to continue to have the joy in my life that they provide.
Seeing God’s provision in my life is exciting and fun!
Second, I love the relationships that are built through support raising. Some times being on the other side of the world is hard. It gets lonely and I fear that the longer I am gone, the more I am forgotten. The phrase “Out of sight, out of mind” definitely rings true, it’s part of human nature. But there is a bond that is formed when someone believes in me and loves me enough to give me their hard earned money. There is SO much joy and thankfulness in my heart when people give towards my life and ministry. There are no words to describe the love I feel towards my supporters, I just want to bring them all to Thailand so that I can hug them on a daily basis!
A few days ago a new supporter emailed me about monthly giving. He said that he didn’t want to set up automatic donations because he wanted a reminder to say extra prayers for me on the 15th of every month. This made me happy. Not because of the monthly donations but because I know that his family will not forget me. Our friendship will continue and I can count on his family when I need extra prayers.
My supporters are the first people to request time with me on my trips to America. And I love it! Relationships are so important and these are holy, God-filled friendships that will continue no matter how long I am gone.
Those are the two main reasons that I love raising financial support. God always provides!!!!
Called to Love
I believe that God called me to ministry around the age of 5. In elementary school I knew that when I grew up I’d be in ministry. In my late teens and early twenties I ran from that calling and tried to live outside it. I believed that there was nothing special inside me, that there was no way I could change the world. But luckily God knew what was inside me much better and He never gives up on His children. He spoke to me on a daily basis, no matter how many times I ignored Him, until one day I listened. I was 22, sitting on a rock in a quarry in Mexico, and I decided it was taking way too much energy to ignore God. So I opened my heart and listened.
That was the day that my life began to change. I use the word “began” because in no way did I instantly become perfect. My life is in a constant state of changing and learning. I am on a continual journey of learning God’s will in my life. I will achieve perfection one day when I join my Father in heaven, but until then, I am flawed. I have hang-ups that trip me up on a regular basis. But I never stop trying to overcome them. And luckily, God never stops providing what I need to overcome and succeed.
I am called to love people. It sounds simple and some of you may argue that loving people is not really a calling. But I joyfully disagree! Some are called to be pastors and healers, I am called to love. It’s what I’m good at and where my gifts lie. So I love people and I love loving people! I open myself up to the work of the Holy Spirit and He shows me who needs to experience His love, through me.
I believe that every one of us has a calling from God. Do you know what yours is? Are you living your calling? Or are you living outside it?
I ask because, as someone who has done both, I’m here to tell you that living your calling is so much easier than than living outside of it. Your life can be extraordinarily blessed beyond measure! And even better, you can be a blessing to the world!
Open your ears and heart to God’s calling on your life and you will never EVER regret it!
Extraordinary
Now and then, in the midst of life, I stop simply to thank my God. My normal life is an extraordinary life and I am SO very thankful. Never in my wildest dreams could I have created my life.
Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing special about me on my own. I’m far from perfect. I’m an introvert with a bad case of OCD. I prefer to be behind the scenes as public speaking makes me feel like passing out. I’m not particularly creative or beautiful or talented. I’m not an inventor of life changing ideas. On my own, I’m ordinary.
But with God in me, I am extraordinary. I am blessed. I am successful, maybe not by the world’s standards, but by the standards that count. I’ve seen miracles. I’ve experienced the power of the Holy Spirit in ways that can’t be explained by earthly methods.
So I stop. I take a deep breath and look around at the many blessings in my life. And I thank God. Over and over again.
Raising Our Expectations (or My Personal Struggle With Lack of Faith)
‘Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.’ (Jeremiah 33:3)
Too often we settle for much less than what God wants to do through us. We read in Jeremiah 32:27: “I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for Me?” and we answer, “No Lord.” Yet, when we face difficult situations we begin to qualify our belief in God and lower our expectations of what God will do. It is one thing to believe God could perform a miracle in the Bible, or a thousand years ago, or even in the life of a friend; it is quite another matter to wholeheartedly believe God can do anything He chooses to do in our lives!
When almighty God speaks to us, what we do next proves what we believe about Him, regardless of what we say. God revealed to Moses His plan to orchestrate the greatest exodus in human history, and He wanted to use Moses to accomplish it. Moses responded by arguing with God! Moses was overwhelmed by what he heard and began to make excuses for why he could not participate in God’s activity. Moses would have readily acknowledged his belief in God’s power, he simply did not believe God could do His miraculous work through his life. Moses’ argument with God limited his ministry for the rest of his life (Exod. 4:13–16).
Do you sense there may be far more that God wants to do through your life than what you have been experiencing? Ask God to show you what it is, then be prepared to respond in faith and obedience to what He tells you.
Above is an excerpt from “Experiencing God, Day-by-Day” by Henry T. Blackaby and Richard Blackaby. I love this devotional!
People often have this idea that missionaries have it all together, that we never doubt or struggle with our faith. That idea is false. Sometimes I think that people on the mission field probably struggle with faith more than those back home. There are so many difficulties and hurdles to jump when you live in a culture that is devoutly against Christianity. Every day is a battle field and to be honest, at times I try to fight alone and those are the days that I lose the fight. But luckily I serve a God who has already won the war and He loves me enough to keep fighting on my side.
My family has been going through some stuff. Sometimes it feels like it’s been one thing after another since my sister died six years ago. But right now my mom is fighting some health issues and it’s hard for me to remain hopeful. I’ve realized that this lack of hope is really a lack of faith.
“Moses would have readily acknowledged his belief in God’s power, he simply did not believe God could do His miraculous work through his life.” I love this because it’s so true for me. I don’t doubt God’s power in the big things, but sometimes I doubt that He can perform miracles in the little parts of my life and my family.
So right now I’m working on building up my faith, immersing myself in The Word so that I can respond in faith and obedience instead of doubt. And I’m thanking God in advance for the miracle He is going to perform in my mom and my family.
Aon, Ya and I have a phrase that we say to each other on a daily basis: พระเจ้าทำได้ (Prajeow tom dai). It means “God can do” and it’s a reminder that when we are weak, God is strong, there is nothing that He cannot do.
So to those of you who also struggle with a lack of faith at times, my encouragement for you is:
พระเจ้าทำได้, God can do!









