Selfish and Blessed

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about getting back into blogging. It’s been so long since my last post and I’ve lost all my readers, and yet, I miss it. So here I am, I’m back! And hopefully someone out there will read this. 🙂

I like to journal. I don’t do it as often as I’d like, but I do it when I can. And often, I write things down on random pieces of paper or napkins because I don’t have my actual journal with me at the moment when words are bursting out of me. It’s a bad habit because I never get around to copying those words into my journal and I end up having a bunch of folded papers stuck in different journals or books.

Today I found one of those pieces paper stuck in a notebook and the words that I’d written, well they made me smile. Because apparently what I was feeling on Friday, September 14 2012 at 11:15pm is still relevant today on Wednesday, May 7 2014 at 9:41pm.

“Some days I wake up selfish.
This life I live requires too much sacrifice.
Don’t I deserve a normal life, with normal things, like my friends have?

Other days I wake up blessed.
I’m such a lucky person to be experiencing such a unique and wonderful life.
What did I do to deserve such beauty?

My mind is fickled.”

Amen, 2012 me, Amen!


2 thoughts on “Selfish and Blessed

  1. Although sometimes it is a gift to be able to cast your words into a void, you have not lost all of your readers. And for distinctively different reasons, I have felt what you have expressed, so thank you for offering community to others who like you…

    …wish for something that is normal, and yet…thank God for the blessing of a life that is out of the ordinary and that few are privileged to experience…

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